Dear scene, am I trying too hard?

November 10, 2009

Not ready for the S word just yet

Filed under: Romance/Relationships — bianca @ 8:55 pm

I open my eyes. Relieved, I reach for my phone, and out of habit, I begin composing a text message. Somewhere along the lines of “OMG I just had a nightmare and…” Wait a minute. Something doesn’t feel right. I check the date. November. Not September? I scroll through my Inbox. Last message received at 2AM and it was from Another Sender (to which till today I have no reply and I feel bad, but not bad enough). Something definitely doesn’t feel right. And so a few minutes of staring-up-at-the-ceiling later this dawns on me: The dream I had, was not a dream but a replay of events of the past two months. Like a movie, you know? Waking up thinking everything was back to normal and then realizing that this is normal… not exactly the kind of feeling one enjoys waking up to.

Now here I am, waiting for my ride (no car tonight). For some unknown reason I start reading Old Posts. Not mine of course. I read mine all the time, just to remind myself of the lessons I have learnt. Some of these posts made me sad, left me longing. Many of them made me roll my eyes and go, “Bullshit!” (out loud). A few of them, especially those from The Beginning, served as warnings, and I now kick myself for not taking them seriously back then.

So like the season we entered each others’ lives, we conquered, and when time was up we moved on. That’s what we were to each other. A phase of some sort. Sad, isn’t it? But a pretty memorable one, that’s a fact.

I had my fortune told once. She said I would meet three Great Loves in my lifetime. You should be delighted to hear you are one of them (I’m not entirely sure though, so ask me again when I am old and grey).

Let me reminisce while I still can. Because before I know it, I will forget… everything.

November 7, 2009

Ain’t no room for apologies

Filed under: Random Thoughts — bianca @ 1:39 am

Hey. About Facebook and other things. It’s just something that has to be done. I promise it’s nothing childish and I ain’t scheming. I’m an analyzer who sometimes have some free time. It’s dangerous. The less I know, the better. Can you understand that?

I’m about to embrace fate. To signs, I did not realize I was being ignorant. I’m here now. Armed and ready for the war. On my own.

xoxo

November 4, 2009

Give it to me

Filed under: Random Thoughts — bianca @ 4:39 pm

The bad news I mean. Right now, and not later. Because by then everything may just get worse.

*runs off to explore*

November 2, 2009

Does anyone believe in karma?

Filed under: Music — bianca @ 7:37 pm

Monday, November 2, 2009

Alex MetricHead Straight

 

 

Johnathan Rice ft. Jenny LewisEnd Of The Affair

 

 

 

 

 

Planet FunkLemonade

 

 

 

SupergrassAlright

 

 

 

October 30, 2009

Come on in now, wipe your feet on my dreams

Filed under: Random Thoughts, Rants — bianca @ 12:55 pm

What do I want? I want someone to stop trying to convince him/herself (or the world) that he/she is a saint for what he/she has done. Stop spinning the truth and just say it for what it is.

I’m tired of… feeling.

PS:- You’re right. You sucked.

October 26, 2009

All of our moments have become ailments

Filed under: Music — bianca @ 10:53 am

Monday, October 26, 2009

OK GoThe Lovecats (The Cure Cover)

 

 

 

 

 

The CureCut Here

 

 

 

Chromeo - Night By Night

 

 

  

Kissy Sell OutThis Kiss

 

 

 

 

This Is Ivy LeagueDon’t Waste Your Love On Me

October 24, 2009

Human skin can be hard to live in, you’ll feel better in the morning

Filed under: Random Thoughts — bianca @ 3:35 am

Goodnight.

October 19, 2009

Sexy girl meet me in the bathroom…

Filed under: Music — bianca @ 2:31 pm

more here: http://dearscene.wordpress.com/music/

Monday, October 19, 2009

The LuriosFootloose and Fancy Free

 

 

 

Tally HallTwo Wuv

 

 

Sugar Ray - Rivers

 

  

Mystery Jets & EsserInbetween Days (The Cure Cover)

 

 

Death from Above 1979 – Little Girl (MSTRKRFT Rmx)*

 *will update with link for download

October 12, 2009

Pass the parcel. That’s sometimes all you can do. Take it, feel it, and pass it on.

Filed under: Music — bianca @ 10:57 am

October 11, 2009

Filed under: Romance/Relationships — bianca @ 1:04 am

Sometimes we’re so focused on finding our happy ending we don’t learn how to read the signs.
How to tell the ones who want us from the ones who don’t. The ones who will stay from the ones who will leave.

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