Dear scene, am I trying too hard?

Mostly because people consider writing to the Scene uncool

Thu, 04 Feb 2010 02:42:01 +0000

I have decided to start a new blog. This one will be discontinued. Will you leave your email address or send a quick note to thenamesbee@yahoo.com? I will be sure to respond with the new weblink as soon as I am done setting it up.

"Why can’t you just publish the link here?" you may ask. Because I want to post under an alias, that’s why. This one has Bianca Lee written all over it. I wouldn’t want to blow my cover by sticking the link here. Lah.

Melodies will not be moved. You will find new ones there

One final announcement: See the screen shot? I’m on the interweb!

So this is goodbye?

Tue, 02 Feb 2010 19:45:00 +0000

Guess where I’m going in just a few days? *excited*

Week after week I find myself something BIG (to me anyway) to look forward to. Keeps my wandering mind occupied. For a good reason, I thought I didn’t need to do it anymore so last week, I stopped. Boy was I wrong because I kind of lost myself for a while there. The things we learn about ourselves every day.

Sun, 31 Jan 2010 15:43:11 +0000

How may broken hearts does a person have to endure before it is truly over? I want your contentment.

Handwritten #5: Good vs Bad. Either way…

Thu, 28 Jan 2010 06:20:53 +0000

Melody #016: Griffin House – Tell Me A Lie

You’re just jealous I gained back the 1kg lost in December ;)

Tue, 26 Jan 2010 08:43:42 +0000

I should not be here

Mon, 18 Jan 2010 12:00:49 +0000

Hi. It’s getting late. I should be heading home. To where I am most comfortable. To where nothing is foreign.

“Then I feel, Harry, that I have given away my whole soul to some one who treats it as if it were a flower to put in his coat, a bit of decoration to charm his vanity, an ornament for a summer’s day.”

Melody #015: The Shins – Turn On Me

My head’s kind of messed up at the moment

Thu, 14 Jan 2010 02:25:19 +0000

It’s not that I don’t have anything to say, I do. In fact, I have so much to say I don’t even know where to start. The best I can do for now is just to put my thoughts into lists.

I recently had an “initiation session”. I wish I knew how these things worked.
I hope to announce a (useless) piece of news in a couple of weeks. Watch this space.
Don’t let me get ahead of myself this time okay?

Melody #013: New Young Pony Club – Lost A Girl

Yay, new album.

Melody #014: The Toxic Avenger – Escape (Dirty Noise Edit)

I let out a small giggle at 1:43. Gets to me every time.

So what if lists are the only way for me to organise my thoughts?

Sun, 03 Jan 2010 08:54:28 +0000

About kissing someone whom you think is wonderful, I think it’s beautiful. To those of you out there lucky enough to kiss and be kissed by someone who thinks fondly of you (and vice versa), count your blessings – and stop fighting.
Did you enjoy the last day of 2009? I sure didn’t. My mind was not mine. Never have I felt so alone in a crowded place, even when I was surrounded by all my friends.
The first 3 days of the year have so far been kind. We’ll see.
I need to thank one person. You don’t know it but you always appear just when I need you most. And I don’t even have to ask. Thank you for your compliments. Thank you for thinking so highly of me and making me feel pretty again. There is hope yet.
Love is a big word. Try not to use it.
I have 500 Days Of Summer but I’m afraid to watch it… hmm.
Next holiday: April 1 to 5 It is three months away, I know, but it will be worth the wait.
This is only funny to me: “I see you with a boyfriend by February,” she said. “February is a month away!” I said. “Oh wait, I meant June…” she said.
I see the intentional gaps and I disagree. I can’t be there for someone when that someone is hardly ever there for me.

Melody #012: The xx – Night Time

Can I confess these things to you? I don’t know. Embedded in my chest, it hurts to hold.